Thursday, June 7, 2012
Dear Sons, Guard your Heart
Mark turned two years old this week, and while my baby is not a baby anymore, I have had this thought lately that if anything happens to me, my kids will never remember me, except from pictures. So much love poured, so many hours of tender care, and they won't remember a thing, or even remember me, if I am gone before they get older.
I know I should not live life filled with thoughts for the worst, but I like to think that this blog is a piece of me that they will always have, with me or without me around. Like a legacy, that you leave behind, hoping that it can talk louder than your own voice, and make a positive impact in their lives.
I have written many posts, but never a personalized letter to their older selves. So, I decided that it was time to do that. To write that one letter that I hope they read when they are teenagers and searching for a sense of self and fullfillement. Or when they are young adults and surrounded by so many choices in life. Or even for when they are raising their own kids, or reaching their own gray hairs, the words I wish they will always have from me.
I don't know where you are in life right now, if you feel happy or lost. I don't know how things are inside your heart, inside your mind or inside your dreams, but whatever you are in life, I have one thing to say: I will always love you despite the circumstances. I will always love you with a love that you may only understand when you have your own kids, or maybe never understand at all, but even if it feels far or unconfortable, always remember, I will always love you.
I wish I could give you a list of dos and don'ts to protect you from all the pain life may bring you, or to guide you towards all the happiness life may give you, but I won't bother you with such long list, only one single advice: guard your heart.
In fact, I did not make up this advice myself, I copied it from King Solomon who wrote a similar letter to his own sons. And he said: Guard your heart with all diligence, for out of it spring the issues of life. Every ugly thing that you may do in life, every hurtful word that you may say towards someone or every path taken that you may come to regret later, will have started first inside your heart.
Now, you can try to polish your heart, or discipline it, or even harden it not to feel the consequences, but always remember that you will fail to guard your heart if you try to do it all by yoursef. And to tell you the truth, I can't help you with guarding your heart either. You will need help from another person. In fact, from the one that made your heart, doesn't that make sense?
God made your heart, so He knows how to make it work right. And even when you think that what you are about to do is right in your own eyes, it may be better to get a second opinion, because God says that your heart is deceitful. Now before you give up hope and stop reading this letter, remember that I just said that I love you more than anything? Well, God loves you even more, can you believe that? He loves you so much that to change your heart, to give you a new heart, He gave His own son, yes the one He loves more than I love you, to have His heart pierced and judged and crushed for you.
But you know what? Christ, the Son of God, lived again and made it possible for you to have a new and pure heart! Through faith in what He has done for you, He can fill your heart with Himself, with peace, with love, with patience, with light, with wisdom, with grace, with holiness, and with joy. And with that kind of heart, you won't need any more letters of advice from you mom, you can let Christ teach you how to love, teach you how to live and how to be the son I pray you will be.
And then my job will have been done, because you are in the hands of someone wiser than me!
Love, your mom.